On Cloud 9...EEEKKKKK!!!

Ok Ok so I only got like 30 mins to type this out so excuse my grammer spelling, lack of details, idk, im just excited!!!!!

So cloud nine! yea its like a major high that wou just wanna stay on forever. Most of the time Cloud nine refers to relationships and being madly "in love." Nope not here! My cloud nine is about this door that has opened up right infront of me. Problem is......should I walk through..... AHHHH ok ok sorry details. Joni and friends, did I tell you in other posts? Its a disability ministry! AH started by Joni a lady who is paralayzed from i believe the neck down due to a diving accident when she was young. AMAZING CHRISTIAN LADY. anyways.... I go to the camps. One week of being paired with a buddy and helping him or her with activities. My last buddy was a sweet and adventerous 3rd grader who had Cerbral Palsy. I love their camps! I'll post websites up soon. ANYWAYS (again) I recieved an e-mail from Allison (a corrdinator and assistant to Chris who holds a Joni and Friends head quarters in Charrolette)talking about a mission trip to the Dominican Republic with their ministry called Wheels for the World. They collect old wheel chairs that are not in use anymore, have inmates work and fix them up, and then deliever them overseas to ppl who can not afford a wheelchair. :D AHHHHH so I was excited (still am) but thats not the exciting part. The e-mail made a BOLD statment that they really want OT's and PT (occupational therapists and physical therapists)so I called up Chris and asked her if a junior in college would be of any use to them. WELL she did mention a) that the young ppl get along great with the kids and
b) she was thinking earlier about how to create a program for the ppl who are waiting to be fitted for a wheelchair which can take all day considering they are providing this city with like 200 of them!! and I told her I am a recreation therapy major! that what we do is create programs for various reasons. Sooo since Im not a qualified RT Chris suggested I talk with my professors and see if I can come up with a program for ppl of various levels (from nonverbal-verbal). She mentioned that I will be seeing ppl literally carried in because they have never had a wheelchair before.... My heart just aches to be apart of giving someone a way to be more independent, a new way of life. AH I wanna go so bad! haha But mom is right I need to get off cloud nine and really analyze the pros and cons.... I see no cons! (except for cost...)

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH I still have till Nov. 15 to figure out if this is where God wants me to go for spring break...

websites:

http://www.joniandfriends.org/

Lets go backwards! 3 days left

So I have 3 days including today till running. Saturday I will be at the Rallies they are doing at DC. Im not too sure what the rallies are about because i dont watch the Steven Cobert report and John Stewart's Late Night Show. Anyways today I was able to run 2+ miles. I was helped near the end of my run when i started to run and talk with an old friend. He loves to run and was considering doing the patriot run Nov. 20th at ECU. I asked him if he would like to train with me and he sounded quite interested. Well anyways since tomorrow is my last possible day to train I am going to attempt to puch myself to the limit...idk what my limit is. I normally quit before i get anywhere close to it im sure. "I keep hearing its all in your head," "your head quits before your body" so im trying to work on distracting my mind (which is why talking to ppl helps). I've been training without an ipod this entire time! Well I will let you know how I succeeded.

One thing that has comeup is people's reactions. Everyone is amazed i am running a 10K and when I tell them that I highly doubt I make it past the half way mark they all say "You can do it Danielle! You'll be great!" which is awesome to hear but at the same time I know where they are coming from. Whenever a friend is attempting to do something (i guess "remarkable, rare, requiring skill or energy,") and they are trying to be reasonable, all we want to do is ignore the reasonable statment and encourage them! We want to boost their self-esteem. Yet looking back at my past mentions of what i am doing I realize I just want to wallow in self-pity for a little while. I am not actually looking for a boost in esteem. If I was looking to up my pride I would mention how well training has been going. I know I want to wallow in pity because while I am training thoughts of how little I can actually go haunt my mind. i try to focus on who would be proud of me when i cross the finish line. Dr. K from Duke would be interested and amazed, my boyfriend would be proud, my parents would be so happy, yet its not alot of motivation anymore. oh well. Im hoping the atmosphere of energy and excitement will keep me going on Sunday. And who knows maybe I can run alongside someone and talk with them or have them talk with me

Well I think this will be my last blogg on training :P I have another blog I am interested in starting about spirtiual gifts. most of it corisponse to 1 Cor. 12-15 (in that general area). By studying this section I feel a little better when faced with the questions and stories of spiritual gifts, something I have been VERY sekptical of.

Not too sure what day this is :D

Well I just heard from my professor that some of his girls didnt get to sign up for the 10K run and are a lil mad. Im guessing that included Sally because she has not been wanting to run in a few days.... Last week was rain rain rain so it was hard to run. Im behind in my schedule but I'll be able to catch up...hopefully

Today I found out that an elliptical at my apartment's gym has a 10K setting!! Im hoping tonight I can see how long it takes me to do a 10K on the elliptical :D


I am either a passive person or at times passive-aggressive. I think im mostly passive-agressive especially with my roomate. When she annoys me I end up ranting about it to someone...mostly my boyfriend. Not good. It doesnt affect how you feel. I am annoyed at roomate so to "fix" the problem I rant to a friend about such roomate and that just brings up the annoyed feelings all over again. Sometimes stronger than before because I remember other times such roomie has annoyed me! Im going to start to being assertive. not Aggressive... not good...
I need to face the problems head on and in a nice yet not apolegetic manner. By being assertive I gain confidence plus with practice I'll be able to state what I believe and what I stand for better than before. Ok im tired and I have a busy day tomorrow...I'll most likley discuss this issue someother post. :D